Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Precious Moments.

These are a few of my favourite things:

~The happy squeals and "HI!"s that I get when ever I go get Cherry from her playpen in the morning and after naps.

~Watching Cherry try to figure out how to use eating utensils.

~Hyper post-bath dogs, and the kid that chases them around the house.

~The happy squeals towards the dogs and cats that Cherry lets out whenever they come close.

~The cuddles and "mmm"s and "ahhh"s I get from Cherry.

~When Cherry comes up to me and grabs my toes and tickles them in order to illicit giggles and screams from me.

~When after I tell Cherry not to do something, she stops, puts on a huge cute grin and says "Hi-yee!"

~How whenever Cherry sees a picture of herself she says "What's this!??!", points to it and yells "Hi" to herself.

~How whenever I show Cherry a picture of her dad, she lights up, giggles, says "Da da", grabs the picture and hugs it.

~How, all of a sudden, the bathroom floor seems like a perfectly reasonable place to store pot lids.

A few years ago, I came to grips with the fact that I was battling depression. I sought help and used medication to help get my chemicals all straightened out. Since having gone through that and having a *tiny* bit of education in psychology, I can recognize that I'm battling to keep my head above the water, so to speak, and am fighting depression once again. Everyday, I have some down moments, but it only takes a second to think about how blessed I am to help me stay afloat. I have the cutest kid in the world, and she helps me see my purpose in life.

8 comments:

Erin said...

Every day has been a struggle for me lately, too. I'm glad you have all of the wonderful things that you've listed in your life, and also that you recognize it. If you ever want to talk or chat or anything, you know how to reach me!

debambam said...

Are you still on meds? Or been to see a doc again to see if you need them again? Stu looks like he'll be on them for life with his bipolar..although not as many as originally thought!
If you ever need a chat, just yell..ok? It's not an easy thing when a lot of people still don't take depression seriously as a REAL illness. I'm thinking of you mate.

debambam said...

Oh I forgot.....love those precious moments! I often think about how much life is different now with Zoe in it. Pre-Zoe my precious moments list would have been so materialistic and activity based. Now it would be very similar to yours, based around feelings invoked by these litte apprentice people we are trying to raise!

Evan said...

A beautiful ending to that post- sometimes a few words (and a positive thought) are all that are needed. I think loads more people are getting a lot by this window into your life, how about that?

Cheers

Maidink said...

Where are the warm woolen mittens and whiskers on kittens? Get it ... Sund of Music?

Oh, nevermind.

Wish I could give you a pep talk or words of wisdom on the depression. It seems like those before me did a good job.

Carry on then.

Randilyn said...

What sweet moments with Cherry! A baby can always make a bad time seem easier. Hope everything starts looking up for ya. But I know what you mean, I have down times everyday...it really does help to get it all out. Once I do (usually companied with a big cry-fest), it feels like a weight has been lifted. Let me know if there is anything that I can do...

andrea said...

I just heard recently about pre-partum depression. It's not as common as post-partum depression, but more common than you might think. A friend of mine suffered from it when she was pregnant with #4 (not a surprise pregnancy).

CeCe said...

Erin~ I hope you pull through these tough times too! You need to turn your AIM on more often! I see you leave comments, but your AIM is offline!

Debambam~Please refer to the email I sent you. Short answer:no meds while I'm pregnant or breast feeding unless totally necessary!

Evan~Well, I don't know... But thank you!

Maidink~Yeah, never seen it.. I know, I'm crazy!

Randilyn~Well I hope you make it through your tough times!

Andrea~Yeah, I heard that one too. It's highly possible that I'm going through that. I think I can (and often do) blame my horomones for a lot of the feelings I have!